Why Is It Always Like That?

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[02:51] hi
[02:52] pls
[02:54] <\666\> ?
[02:54] wanna chat?
[02:55] <\666\> depends
[02:56] on what?
[02:57] <\666\> on whether or not u worth to be chatted with
[02:57] <\666\> (=
[02:57] u know when u knew
[02:58] otherwise u loss ur opportunity
[02:59] <\666\> (=
[02:59] <\666\> nice
[02:59] <\666\> so...
[02:59] <\666\> what keeps u awake to this wee hour of the nite
[02:59] <\666\> ?
[02:59] i'm a batman
[02:59] <\666\> haha
[03:00] <\666\> and i'm a caesar
[03:00] <\666\> =P
[03:01] then u r not kicked by ur nature
[03:01] <\666\> allrite then, batman...
[03:01] <\666\> how come u're not fooling around gotham city
[03:01] <\666\> and sit by ur comp instead?
[03:02] <\666\> i dun think criminals are all safe and sound behind bars
[03:02] i'm thinking of going around n found u at the corner
[03:03] criminals out of jails if u r stay home
[03:03] what u do for living?
[03:04] <\666\> haha
[03:04] <\666\> well...
[03:04] <\666\> i work as a listener
[03:04] <\666\> it's kinda full-time profession
[03:04] <\666\> especially w/ ppl like u
[03:05] u'll be good only if there is noise
[03:06] <\666\> not really
[03:06] <\666\> i'm a noice-sorter
[03:06] <\666\> i listen what i wanna listen
[03:07] u cant listen at all if if all silent
[03:07] <\666\> yes and no
[03:07] <\666\> when there is deafening silence, there's the true you that'll be heard
[03:08] so u r not listener anymore, but speaker
[03:08] <\666\> in your case, yes
[03:08] <\666\> n i have no single idea why i tell this 2 u
[03:09] <\666\> haha
[03:09] so u quit or job as a listener once u become a speaker
[03:09] <\666\> well...
[03:09] <\666\> if u keep asking me, yes
[03:10] <\666\> (=
[03:10] to be a speaker u have to run an office
[03:10] <\666\> not really
[03:10] <\666\> to be a speaker, u hafta have materials to be spoken about
[03:11] then u r a staff
[03:11] <\666\> and audience to be spoken to
[03:11] collecting materials for speaking
[03:11] <\666\> haha
[03:11] <\666\> literally, yes
[03:11] <\666\> i responsible to collect materials and report them
[03:12] WHERE r u?
[03:12] <\666\> n dat's--literally--what i've been doing since 7 pm
[03:12] <\666\> me? in front of my comp
[03:12] <\666\> before ur very eyes
[03:12] <\666\> seen but unseen
[03:12] <\666\> doing my work and amusing u at the same time
[03:12] <\666\> (=
[03:13] u r talking to nobody, if u said u r there
[03:13] <\666\> very well, then
[03:13] <\666\> i am a nobody as well
[03:13] why talking nothing if u r with somebody here
[03:14] <\666\> i'm water
[03:14] <\666\> my shape is what i'm in
[03:14] <\666\> and u're the interceptor dat i'm in
[03:14] water freezes, no more water
[03:15] <\666\> water freezes IF u want me to freeze
[03:15] <\666\> tho i'm fire within
[03:15] if u r freezing u become frigid
[03:15] <\666\> but deadly, still
[03:16] nobody will touch u
[03:16] <\666\> i touch
[03:16] <\666\> not to be touched
[03:16] u touch urself? wow
[03:16] <\666\> haha
[03:17] <\666\> i dun think i have the gut
[03:17] i wanna somebody touch me
[03:17] smoothly
[03:17] <\666\> cant do dat
[03:17] <\666\> it's a rough ride, being w/ me
[03:18] imagining is power
[03:18] <\666\> cant agree more
[03:18] <\666\> what's on ur mind now
[03:18] <\666\> ?
[03:18] sensing is colorful
[03:19] <\666\> hmm...
[03:19] <\666\> i jez heard dat
[03:19] <\666\> i thought color is everywhere
[03:19] <\666\> even w/ ur eyes closed
[03:19] touching is something else
[03:20] imagine what u sense and touch is more than what u can think
[03:21] <\666\> (=
[03:21] <\666\> there'll be lot of spectrum, definitely
[03:22] so, dont let ur mind stop doin de imagination
[03:22] <\666\> based on ur terms, dat's why i love 2 'touch' people w/ my rough ride
[03:22] <\666\> i need all imagination in the world in doing my timeless job here
[03:23] u go thru whatever ur sense or touch cant do
[03:24] <\666\> n u worth listening
[03:24] <\666\> (=
[03:24] no bad or good of imagination
[03:25] <\666\> yes
[03:26] <\666\> u can do wuteva u like w/ it
[03:26] <\666\> n become whateva u wanna be
[03:26] u wrong
[03:27] <\666\> how come?
[03:28] as long u still control ur imagination, so for whatever u like, u'll not become anything..
[03:28] <\666\> interesting
[03:29] <\666\> n why is it?
[03:29] Rumi said that whatever u want to be is not in ur destiny
[03:30] ur destiny is not whatever u want but it is whatever u follow
[03:30] <\666\> i c
[03:31] <\666\> but the power to imagine is totally difrent from power of 'to be', i presume?
[03:31] is whatever u follow depends on whatever u want?
[03:31] <\666\> yes
[03:31] wrong again
[03:32] <\666\> n we so often following the path that end up in the thing dat we wanna be
[03:32] <\666\> dat's when we become what the destiny want us to be
[03:33] no, u can go to whatever u go not only becuz u want it
[03:33] <\666\> so?
[03:33] u wanna be a listener or u just be a listener?
[03:34] <\666\> well...
[03:34] <\666\> i HAPPEN to be a listener
[03:34] <\666\> i dunno what demon or angel took me to dat path back then
[03:34] so u do something that is not really want u want?
[03:34] <\666\> but here i am, for almost all of my waking life
[03:35] <\666\> at first, yes
[03:35] <\666\> but i enjoy it along the way
[03:35] <\666\> (=
[03:35] <\666\> it's kinda like... fun, actually
[03:35] u r trapped in something that u r pretending that u really want it hehee, poor u
[03:36] <\666\> if it is a trap, then, i voluntarily plunged into it
[03:36] so u be a bad humanbeing!
[03:36] <\666\> i be a useful humanbeing for other humanbeing
[03:37] <\666\> in ur point of view, yes, i might be pathetic
[03:37] try to dance... and feel the move and empty ur mind
[03:37] <\666\> i'm dancing now, baby
[03:37] <\666\> im dancing
[03:37] catch the bliss
[03:37] <\666\> w/ u and all the universe
[03:37] <\666\> n this is my bliss
[03:38] <\666\> n i am blessed
[03:38] u cannot say that it is ur bliss, if u r trapped, freedom is freedom not trapping!
[03:39] <\666\> freedom is the tightest link in the chain
[03:39] u enjoy ur life becuz u have no choice, u r trapped!
[03:39] <\666\> freedom is illusion
[03:39] poor u!
[03:39] <\666\> all is between ur ears
[03:40] <\666\> (=
[03:40] <\666\> again..
[03:40] <\666\> in ur point of view, yes, i might be pathetic
[03:40] illusion is part of imagination
[03:40] <\666\> yes, i agree
[03:40] try dancing again, follow whatever u go
[03:40] <\666\> 1 thing dat u dunno...
[03:40] <\666\> i'm a masochist
[03:41] <\666\> i hurt myself and enjoy it
[03:41] dont label urself
[03:41] <\666\> ok
[03:41] <\666\> i'm trying 2 dance w/ u now
[03:41] <\666\> trying to follow your steps
[03:42] <\666\> but it's my choice whether or not to carry on w/ this dance lesson, rite?
[03:43] labeling is a part of making urself be put into classifying of trapping
[03:43] wrong again, dont follow ur steps hehe...
[03:44] ur steps might not to ur destiny
[03:44] <\666\> i believe dat classifying is the most primitive instict to all living things
[03:44] <\666\> it's kinda basic for survival
[03:45] <\666\> yes, i believe dat my steps might not taking me to my destiny
[03:45] hehe
[03:45] <\666\> but, again, it's my free will to go where i want to go
[03:45] <\666\> n im starving
[03:45] <\666\> it's a good sign
[03:45] <\666\> haha
[03:46] <\666\> wanna have early breakfast/verylate supper w/ me?
[03:46] good start
[03:46] <\666\> i only have half plate of leftover oseng2 oncom if u dun mind
[03:46] <\666\> hehe
[03:47] i have to go, nice to meet u, i have to go to russia tomorrow nite
[03:48] <\666\> (=
[03:48] <\666\> same here
[03:48] <\666\> nice 2 meet u 2
[03:48] want something from Russia?
[03:48] <\666\> save trip and hafa great time there
[03:48] <\666\> umm...
[03:48] <\666\> i might not need anything from russia
[03:49] <\666\> but i believe i need u 2 come back 2 me someday
[03:49] ok bye see u again next time
[03:49] <\666\> c ya
[03:49] <\666\> ummm
[03:49] <\666\> dun u wanna know the real me?
[03:49] ok tell me
[03:50] <\666\> i wanna know the real u first
[03:50] <\666\> hehe
[03:50] i'm a regular man with real power
[03:51] <\666\> n im an ordinary girl with power over nothing
[03:51] ok, tell me more
[03:51] <\666\> tell u more what?
[03:51] <\666\> oseng2 oncom?
[03:51] <\666\> nice
[03:51] <\666\> hehe
[03:52] r u in Yogya?
[03:52] <\666\> used to
[03:52] now?
[03:53] <\666\> Jakarta the city of necropolis and many lost souls
[03:53] u wanna have sex with me hehehe
[03:53] <\666\> haha!
[03:53] <\666\> in ur dream, baby
[03:54] <\666\> in ur dream
[03:54] <\666\> (=
[03:54] have u had sex be4?
[03:54] <\666\> am i being impolite to let my sex life only for me?
[03:54] <\666\> (=
[03:55] i'm a straigthforward gentleman, excuse if i make u such noise
[03:56] <\666\> i'd love to hear more of ur noise
[03:56] <\666\> quite useful
[03:56] so tell me if u have sex be4?
[03:56] <\666\> i love 2 hear noise
[03:57] <\666\> not make some
[03:57] <\666\> (=
[03:57] and i like to make one in ur dream
[03:57] i could be ur dream hehe
[03:58] <\666\> haha
[03:58] <\666\> nice try
[03:58] <\666\> =P
[03:58] i'm not trying, i'm asking
[03:58] <\666\> the power of imagining like u said before...
[03:58] <\666\> it's interesting
[03:58] <\666\> becuz when u keep imagining me as i am now
[03:59] <\666\> i'd be eternal in ur memory
[03:59] dream's diffrent from imagination
[03:59] <\666\> well, at least it's like illusion also
[03:59] <\666\> part of it, yet, those that make imagination
[04:00] ok, i got u, my Q already answered
[04:00] <\666\> im jez an ordinary girl w/ ordinary syndrome of fear and dats whats keeping me awake
[04:01] <\666\> except for the demanding monthly reports dat ive gotta finished
[04:01] <\666\> hahaha
[04:01] <\666\> NOW u got me
[04:01] i like to have sex
[04:01] thx
[04:01] bye
[04:01] <\666\> such a waste...
[04:01] * \666\ sighs
[04:01] <\666\> take care, then
[04:02] may be sometime
[04:02] other time
[04:02] next time
[04:02] like no other time
[04:02] <\666\> haha
[04:02] thx again dear
[04:02] <\666\> sounds familiar
[04:02] <\666\> no sweat, fella
[04:02] what?
[04:03] <\666\> what what?
[04:03] ok then bye dear
[04:03] <\666\> c u in hell, baby

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Such a waste, indeed. Kenapa sih orang-orang yang bisa diajak ngomong asik selalu end-up ke masalah selangkangan? I believe that there is more to life than just three-second genital contraction called orgasm. Yet, I feel like I'm the only person in this fucked-up universe that believe such theory.

Damn!