"Fuck!" Say I

Sketched by my own Bartimaeus , my ever present safety net. I am braver than I believe, stronger than I seem, smarter than I think, and loved more than I know. Yup, I'm quoting Winnie the Pooh 🙊 Sometimes I'm focusing more to noises than listening to the real voice. Sometimes I'm carried away by impostors and forgot my genuine self. When I wanted to be stupid, I professionally gave in and gave up my wit. Nil bastardi carborundum. No bastard could grind me down. Bring it on, fucktard. This is an open challenge to myself. The victor would be the one with most humane: me as a whole or my idiotic ego. Vale!

Credit by the artist. I don't own the copyright. Forgive me Mother for I have sinned. Forgive my standoffish nature and take things lightly, that I thought I had everything under control. Forgive me for falling so fucking hard and reached my rock bottom. Forgive my eight hours of the BIGGEST sadness in my life, that I didn't put myself first in my own frame. Forgive me for sleeping the whole ride home and continued sleeping for 12-hour straight because this pain won't subside, my suffering was inevitable, and the hurt was so deep. Forgive me for being so reckless, for being so lulled by my own wishful thinking that the world revolves around me, that things could go my way, that if I could understand people then I could bend people under my will. Well, turned out that what I faced was not even people. I didn't know how to put it, but I don't think a decent human being could do something so hurtful and so ignorant. I should've learned my lesson that human...