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Why Is It Always Like That?

Posted by The Bitch on 4/05/2007 01:41:00 PM

Semalem iseng-iseng nostalgia dan buka program ceting jadul yang bikin gwa belajar banyak. Settingan sih selalu away. Tapi kalo kira-kira ada yang menarik yah... jabanin aja, ajak ceting. Seperti di bawah ini:

[02:51] hi
[02:52] pls
[02:54] <\666\> ?
[02:54] wanna chat?
[02:55] <\666\> depends
[02:56] on what?
[02:57] <\666\> on whether or not u worth to be chatted with
[02:57] <\666\> (=
[02:57] u know when u knew
[02:58] otherwise u loss ur opportunity
[02:59] <\666\> (=
[02:59] <\666\> nice
[02:59] <\666\> so...
[02:59] <\666\> what keeps u awake to this wee hour of the nite
[02:59] <\666\> ?
[02:59] i'm a batman
[02:59] <\666\> haha
[03:00] <\666\> and i'm a caesar
[03:00] <\666\> =P
[03:01] then u r not kicked by ur nature
[03:01] <\666\> allrite then, batman...
[03:01] <\666\> how come u're not fooling around gotham city
[03:01] <\666\> and sit by ur comp instead?
[03:02] <\666\> i dun think criminals are all safe and sound behind bars
[03:02] i'm thinking of going around n found u at the corner
[03:03] criminals out of jails if u r stay home
[03:03] what u do for living?
[03:04] <\666\> haha
[03:04] <\666\> well...
[03:04] <\666\> i work as a listener
[03:04] <\666\> it's kinda full-time profession
[03:04] <\666\> especially w/ ppl like u
[03:05] u'll be good only if there is noise
[03:06] <\666\> not really
[03:06] <\666\> i'm a noice-sorter
[03:06] <\666\> i listen what i wanna listen
[03:07] u cant listen at all if if all silent
[03:07] <\666\> yes and no
[03:07] <\666\> when there is deafening silence, there's the true you that'll be heard
[03:08] so u r not listener anymore, but speaker
[03:08] <\666\> in your case, yes
[03:08] <\666\> n i have no single idea why i tell this 2 u
[03:09] <\666\> haha
[03:09] so u quit or job as a listener once u become a speaker
[03:09] <\666\> well...
[03:09] <\666\> if u keep asking me, yes
[03:10] <\666\> (=
[03:10] to be a speaker u have to run an office
[03:10] <\666\> not really
[03:10] <\666\> to be a speaker, u hafta have materials to be spoken about
[03:11] then u r a staff
[03:11] <\666\> and audience to be spoken to
[03:11] collecting materials for speaking
[03:11] <\666\> haha
[03:11] <\666\> literally, yes
[03:11] <\666\> i responsible to collect materials and report them
[03:12] WHERE r u?
[03:12] <\666\> n dat's--literally--what i've been doing since 7 pm
[03:12] <\666\> me? in front of my comp
[03:12] <\666\> before ur very eyes
[03:12] <\666\> seen but unseen
[03:12] <\666\> doing my work and amusing u at the same time
[03:12] <\666\> (=
[03:13] u r talking to nobody, if u said u r there
[03:13] <\666\> very well, then
[03:13] <\666\> i am a nobody as well
[03:13] why talking nothing if u r with somebody here
[03:14] <\666\> i'm water
[03:14] <\666\> my shape is what i'm in
[03:14] <\666\> and u're the interceptor dat i'm in
[03:14] water freezes, no more water
[03:15] <\666\> water freezes IF u want me to freeze
[03:15] <\666\> tho i'm fire within
[03:15] if u r freezing u become frigid
[03:15] <\666\> but deadly, still
[03:16] nobody will touch u
[03:16] <\666\> i touch
[03:16] <\666\> not to be touched
[03:16] u touch urself? wow
[03:16] <\666\> haha
[03:17] <\666\> i dun think i have the gut
[03:17] i wanna somebody touch me
[03:17] smoothly
[03:17] <\666\> cant do dat
[03:17] <\666\> it's a rough ride, being w/ me
[03:18] imagining is power
[03:18] <\666\> cant agree more
[03:18] <\666\> what's on ur mind now
[03:18] <\666\> ?
[03:18] sensing is colorful
[03:19] <\666\> hmm...
[03:19] <\666\> i jez heard dat
[03:19] <\666\> i thought color is everywhere
[03:19] <\666\> even w/ ur eyes closed
[03:19] touching is something else
[03:20] imagine what u sense and touch is more than what u can think
[03:21] <\666\> (=
[03:21] <\666\> there'll be lot of spectrum, definitely
[03:22] so, dont let ur mind stop doin de imagination
[03:22] <\666\> based on ur terms, dat's why i love 2 'touch' people w/ my rough ride
[03:22] <\666\> i need all imagination in the world in doing my timeless job here
[03:23] u go thru whatever ur sense or touch cant do
[03:24] <\666\> n u worth listening
[03:24] <\666\> (=
[03:24] no bad or good of imagination
[03:25] <\666\> yes
[03:26] <\666\> u can do wuteva u like w/ it
[03:26] <\666\> n become whateva u wanna be
[03:26] u wrong
[03:27] <\666\> how come?
[03:28] as long u still control ur imagination, so for whatever u like, u'll not become anything..
[03:28] <\666\> interesting
[03:29] <\666\> n why is it?
[03:29] Rumi said that whatever u want to be is not in ur destiny
[03:30] ur destiny is not whatever u want but it is whatever u follow
[03:30] <\666\> i c
[03:31] <\666\> but the power to imagine is totally difrent from power of 'to be', i presume?
[03:31] is whatever u follow depends on whatever u want?
[03:31] <\666\> yes
[03:31] wrong again
[03:32] <\666\> n we so often following the path that end up in the thing dat we wanna be
[03:32] <\666\> dat's when we become what the destiny want us to be
[03:33] no, u can go to whatever u go not only becuz u want it
[03:33] <\666\> so?
[03:33] u wanna be a listener or u just be a listener?
[03:34] <\666\> well...
[03:34] <\666\> i HAPPEN to be a listener
[03:34] <\666\> i dunno what demon or angel took me to dat path back then
[03:34] so u do something that is not really want u want?
[03:34] <\666\> but here i am, for almost all of my waking life
[03:35] <\666\> at first, yes
[03:35] <\666\> but i enjoy it along the way
[03:35] <\666\> (=
[03:35] <\666\> it's kinda like... fun, actually
[03:35] u r trapped in something that u r pretending that u really want it hehee, poor u
[03:36] <\666\> if it is a trap, then, i voluntarily plunged into it
[03:36] so u be a bad humanbeing!
[03:36] <\666\> i be a useful humanbeing for other humanbeing
[03:37] <\666\> in ur point of view, yes, i might be pathetic
[03:37] try to dance... and feel the move and empty ur mind
[03:37] <\666\> i'm dancing now, baby
[03:37] <\666\> im dancing
[03:37] catch the bliss
[03:37] <\666\> w/ u and all the universe
[03:37] <\666\> n this is my bliss
[03:38] <\666\> n i am blessed
[03:38] u cannot say that it is ur bliss, if u r trapped, freedom is freedom not trapping!
[03:39] <\666\> freedom is the tightest link in the chain
[03:39] u enjoy ur life becuz u have no choice, u r trapped!
[03:39] <\666\> freedom is illusion
[03:39] poor u!
[03:39] <\666\> all is between ur ears
[03:40] <\666\> (=
[03:40] <\666\> again..
[03:40] <\666\> in ur point of view, yes, i might be pathetic
[03:40] illusion is part of imagination
[03:40] <\666\> yes, i agree
[03:40] try dancing again, follow whatever u go
[03:40] <\666\> 1 thing dat u dunno...
[03:40] <\666\> i'm a masochist
[03:41] <\666\> i hurt myself and enjoy it
[03:41] dont label urself
[03:41] <\666\> ok
[03:41] <\666\> i'm trying 2 dance w/ u now
[03:41] <\666\> trying to follow your steps
[03:42] <\666\> but it's my choice whether or not to carry on w/ this dance lesson, rite?
[03:43] labeling is a part of making urself be put into classifying of trapping
[03:43] wrong again, dont follow ur steps hehe...
[03:44] ur steps might not to ur destiny
[03:44] <\666\> i believe dat classifying is the most primitive instict to all living things
[03:44] <\666\> it's kinda basic for survival
[03:45] <\666\> yes, i believe dat my steps might not taking me to my destiny
[03:45] hehe
[03:45] <\666\> but, again, it's my free will to go where i want to go
[03:45] <\666\> n im starving
[03:45] <\666\> it's a good sign
[03:45] <\666\> haha
[03:46] <\666\> wanna have early breakfast/verylate supper w/ me?
[03:46] good start
[03:46] <\666\> i only have half plate of leftover oseng2 oncom if u dun mind
[03:46] <\666\> hehe
[03:47] i have to go, nice to meet u, i have to go to russia tomorrow nite
[03:48] <\666\> (=
[03:48] <\666\> same here
[03:48] <\666\> nice 2 meet u 2
[03:48] want something from Russia?
[03:48] <\666\> save trip and hafa great time there
[03:48] <\666\> umm...
[03:48] <\666\> i might not need anything from russia
[03:49] <\666\> but i believe i need u 2 come back 2 me someday
[03:49] ok bye see u again next time
[03:49] <\666\> c ya
[03:49] <\666\> ummm
[03:49] <\666\> dun u wanna know the real me?
[03:49] ok tell me
[03:50] <\666\> i wanna know the real u first
[03:50] <\666\> hehe
[03:50] i'm a regular man with real power
[03:51] <\666\> n im an ordinary girl with power over nothing
[03:51] ok, tell me more
[03:51] <\666\> tell u more what?
[03:51] <\666\> oseng2 oncom?
[03:51] <\666\> nice
[03:51] <\666\> hehe
[03:52] r u in Yogya?
[03:52] <\666\> used to
[03:52] now?
[03:53] <\666\> Jakarta the city of necropolis and many lost souls
[03:53] u wanna have sex with me hehehe
[03:53] <\666\> haha!
[03:53] <\666\> in ur dream, baby
[03:54] <\666\> in ur dream
[03:54] <\666\> (=
[03:54] have u had sex be4?
[03:54] <\666\> am i being impolite to let my sex life only for me?
[03:54] <\666\> (=
[03:55] i'm a straigthforward gentleman, excuse if i make u such noise
[03:56] <\666\> i'd love to hear more of ur noise
[03:56] <\666\> quite useful
[03:56] so tell me if u have sex be4?
[03:56] <\666\> i love 2 hear noise
[03:57] <\666\> not make some
[03:57] <\666\> (=
[03:57] and i like to make one in ur dream
[03:57] i could be ur dream hehe
[03:58] <\666\> haha
[03:58] <\666\> nice try
[03:58] <\666\> =P
[03:58] i'm not trying, i'm asking
[03:58] <\666\> the power of imagining like u said before...
[03:58] <\666\> it's interesting
[03:58] <\666\> becuz when u keep imagining me as i am now
[03:59] <\666\> i'd be eternal in ur memory
[03:59] dream's diffrent from imagination
[03:59] <\666\> well, at least it's like illusion also
[03:59] <\666\> part of it, yet, those that make imagination
[04:00] ok, i got u, my Q already answered
[04:00] <\666\> im jez an ordinary girl w/ ordinary syndrome of fear and dats whats keeping me awake
[04:01] <\666\> except for the demanding monthly reports dat ive gotta finished
[04:01] <\666\> hahaha
[04:01] <\666\> NOW u got me
[04:01] i like to have sex
[04:01] thx
[04:01] bye
[04:01] <\666\> such a waste...
[04:01] * \666\ sighs
[04:01] <\666\> take care, then
[04:02] may be sometime
[04:02] other time
[04:02] next time
[04:02] like no other time
[04:02] <\666\> haha
[04:02] thx again dear
[04:02] <\666\> sounds familiar
[04:02] <\666\> no sweat, fella
[04:02] what?
[04:03] <\666\> what what?
[04:03] ok then bye dear
[04:03] <\666\> c u in hell, baby

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Such a waste, indeed. Kenapa sih orang-orang yang bisa diajak ngomong asik selalu end-up ke masalah selangkangan? I believe that there is more to life than just three-second genital contraction called orgasm. Yet, I feel like I'm the only person in this fucked-up universe that believe such theory.

Damn!

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  at: 5:23 PM, posted by Blogger zenrs88@gmail.com said...

[Kenapa sih orang-orang yang bisa diajak ngomong asik selalu end-up ke masalah selangkangan?]

NGomong asik itu apa aja contohnya? Ngomongin hidup, sastra, puisi, film, cinta? Hmm... jika ya, mungkin benar kata Frued kali ya, bahwa kebudayaan dan peradaban itu lahr sebagai konsekuensi kreatif atas tak terpenuhinya sejumlah naluri dasar manusia, salah satunya soal selangkangan itu.

  at: 12:06 PM, posted by Blogger iway said...

me too, me too **nunjuk-nunjukin jari**
you're not alone, dan kayaknya ga cuman kita berdua deh :D kasian banget dunia ini kalo semua hal harus berakhir dengan "three-second genital contraction"
i love my daughter, but doesn't mean that i have to have sex with her :D

**tenang aja, gw ga akan ngajak elu have s*x, tapi mungkin gw ga bisa diajak ngobrol asik :D**

  at: 11:20 AM, posted by Anonymous oom jin said...

seperti biasa, pesona cybermu memang gag tertahanken. :P

  at: 11:40 AM, posted by Blogger human wannabe said...

pakdhe zen:
hehehe...

iway:
kalo pun publik kebanyakan ngenyek orang macem kita ini ga laku dan patut dikasihani, at least we take it with pride *di bagian ini temen gwa sering bilang kalo gwa seringkali jatuh dengan gagah*

om jin:
yea, riteā„¢
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